@rar1 Well you definitely have my compassion for your situation.
Everyone has something in their lives they feel is or might be a disaster. And sometimes we lose perspective, because not every person's disaster is equally disasterous. Billionaires worry about losing 10% of their money or bad public relations. That's what qualifies as a "disaster" to them, despite someone facing your issues thinking that's nothing.
I just think losing my hearing would be a disaster. That's my perspective, however much it might not be seeing the big picture. Also, most hearing issues people had were minor, so maybe I'm worrying too much. I have at least 20 years of life left, probably more (I'm 56; I've already had a stroke though) and I don't want to spend those years without hearing. But that's what I worry about right now.