I feel sorry for all the Audiophile Billies around here and I think you have problems elsewhere in your lives that make it impossible for you to enjoy music. I don't want to get into your lives any further, but as far as audio goes, just relax and enjoy. Be happy with what you have.
But, if you come across a component that would improve the sound quality of your system and you can afford it, buy it and go back to enjoying your music. Buying better quality audio gear Should not cause you anxiety and it need not be expensive. There is so much good gear around at great prices that there's no reason that pursuing good sound should conflict with enjoying music.
Best wishes on your audio journeys. That's all I have to say.