About Lugnut -- Patrick Malone

Barb,

I know you have been the strength behind Pat's grace, and I know how you have grown from your role. I say I know, when of course I have no real experience other than watching my wife live for eight years through many nights where she and I wondered if this was it. I generally ended up in the emergency room, but more often lately, we simply ride it out.

The point is my wife has grown into the most incredible person I know. She continues to share her fears and sadness, but way above that she continues to laugh. Countless times over the years we had two options, one was to laugh and accept the futility of the situation, the other choice was to cry and fall into an abyss of darkness. far too often I hear people say how amazing she is. (of course I am jealous of the attention and wonder why they don't see me, I'm kidding, she deserves all the accolades as do you)

My wife, as with you have kept seeing the good in the day. I know you have the tools to move forward, but I hope you will allow Pat's friends here at Audiogon be a part of that journey. I think the people you and Pat have met through this thread are something much deeper than simply audio geeks. The two of you have reached out with your love, and our souls have recognized this love. Please allow us to continue share and grow with you.

Oh yea, your still here aren't you Pat? Damn! I thought a little opening of my heart could lead to some flirting and...

Sorry I forgot you were still...

But one last thought, for those of us who would like to share our thoughts and love with Barb, I wonder if you would be comfortable posting your address, or is it best to keep that off line?

I love you two, your amazing!!!

JD

Thanks Albert for your post above, you showed me a different side of you.

Pat you have been teaching me (all of us, no doubt) about life in an unprecedented way, without prompting, just by being Patrick aka Lugnut.

Just by being Patrick aka Lugnut (:)) I know you'll always be there for everyone...

My words are poor and I feel much too incapable to do something worthwhile and say something worthwhile... you noticed: my mind immediately jumped to an "exchange" and Pat, you don't belong to the "you give s/thing you take s/thing" world. You are in the "give s/thing" world.

If /when I manage to fully understand your legacy, I for one will have gained some of your strength & courage -- and by remembering these lessons, I will be capable in turn of passing some of this legacy to others who depend on me (I have two small children).

It is now 11:30 am, half-way around the world, and I am at my office trying to picture Barb and Pat.

I am thinking that there will be moments when either Josephine (our daughter) or Christian (our son) will come to me with their "problems" and I will be able to say, "...cheer up and let me tell you what two good friends from across the Atlantic have to say about this...".

That's fortunate indeed and I can count myself among the lucky ones.

Pls do excuse this public display of emotion -- I guess the "stiff upper lip" is somewhat failing me and words are still inadequate.

Pat,

I wonder if there is a charitable group or organization you would want those of us that choose to remember you could donate to. If you don't believe in that sort of thing and you wanted to have us send money directly to Barb I don't think anyone would find it objectionable. Your words have taken on a life independent of your own. I will print this thread when it's done and use it as a source of comfort and inspiration to the unfortunate ones that may undertake the journey you've travelled so gracefully in the future.

Gregm you should just try to picture Barb as she's a lot cuter than Pat. He'd be quick to say the same thing...

I'm not sure what it means but I still have a picture of Pat that I snapped with my camera phone while we were in Dallas together. I should probably move it to a safer place. I would hate to loose that picture.

Pat - be strong today.

J.D., As usual thanks for your words. I can post my address here if you wish. It's already in this thread somewhere. Just to clarify what I'd like Barb to call on is just phone help, walking her through properly boxing stuff or hooking it back up. I'm sure there are Linn guys here and Supratek guys, etc. so she'd get really good help. Maybe she'll need advice on what to do with my ashes after she's got a new boyfriend. Not you J.D.; you've already got a wife. He he. Albert is one fine friend. Address is: 307 W. Sherman Ave. Nampa, Idaho 83686

BTW, Barb knows how to log onto my account and will post updates when I lay down.

Gregm, greetings back at you. I do hope that some good can come of this thread after I'm done with it. It's a terrible thing but I'm getting used to the undeserved compliments. People that have known me my whole life just think my behavior here is a logical extension of who I've always been. Talk too much. LOL. Can't help it, really. Your thoughts are touching, especially the ones regarding your chldren. Maybe yours will listen to what I have to say. Mine don't. There is a photo of Barb and I buried deep in this thread. It was posted by Jphii. Yeah, she's a lot better looking than me. Poor, blind girl got suckered.

Jsonic, I'll have to think the charitable thing over. At first blush I'd like to think there would be several billion dollars offered up so why not start one? Really I'd like you guys to consider what Ampster had to say above. It would be cool if it could be pulled off. Not many have commented on it.

Nate, you need to quit sending me gifts. Save your money and buy that Kinner plug and play record player you've been wanting.

Just a note about weird experiences. So, I'm taking a fair amount of oxycontin so I'm kinda high all the time. Also, I eat and drink so little I'm surprised that I can even sit here and type. I delay taking my morning meds until I've finished writing. I'm no longer the sharpest knife in the drawer. Yesterday was weird. I was seeing things in my peripheral vision and found myself constantly turning my head to see what was going on. It kind of scared me. So, I ate more food than normal and kept it down too. Maybe I can be scared into getting better. LOL. It was unsettling.