I mean no disrespect to you as a musician, but in my experience musicians don’t always make the best audiophiles. I have a friend who is very well known violist who is perfectly happy using an AM transistor radio circa 1960 as his only piece of audio. He knows music so well that I think his mind fills in whats missing. The perspective that you describe having the brass blow up your butt while you play must be thrilling, but again you know the music so well that you are entranced when you get to experience facets of it in a unique way. Is that really the experience that you crave if you are going to sit and listen to a recording a few dozen times? I think the uniqueness would wear off and become fatiguing.
I have sat first row, dead center, in Boston and Chicago (where I live), so close to the conductor that I could hear the noise made when his perspiration hits the podium. It is a thrilling perspective, but not an experience that I care to repeat often.
I have sat in every part of Chicago’s Symphony Hall over the past few decades, jand without question first row balcony takes the cake. They are also the most expensive seats, so most listeners must agree. It isn’t because the seats are the most comfortable.