Allow me to use Zen Buddhist notion to describe three stages of perception or understanding.
At first, seeing a mountain is just seeing a mountain; seeing water is just seeing water.
Later, seeing a mountain is no longer seeing a mountain; seeing water is no longer seeing water.
In the end, seeing a mountain is once again a mountain; seeing water is once again water
I think you are in the second stage and, depending on the individual, it may take you another year, three years, or even ten years to reach the final stage - or perhaps never.