I lately wonder why I’m an Audiophile.

This is like photography.  A razor sharp digital image is perfection and many people seek that. Then you seen a grainy Henri Cartier Bresson image that makes you realize it's NOT about the gear but about the vision of the photographer.  So, listen to the music not the gear.  I am only coming back into this after a decade of hanging it up after listening to gear not music. I just got frustrated.  I'm ready to listen to music again because music heals the soul, gear does not.  

As the old saying goes, when you're sad you listen to the  words, when you're happy you listen to the music,  Listen to the music.  

This is a good discussion.  The first piece of advice many years ago was by a small solo owned higher end shop in our town.  I was auditioning speakers and trying to be very A/B at home and this was becoming frustrating.  He suggest I take two sets of speakers home and just sit and listen non-critically.  The "first one you want to turn off after a while that gives you fatigue you bring back, rinse and repeat until you are satisfied....don't over think it."  I did well with that advice then all hell unwound and I fell down the rabbit hole over years until I shelved it all.  Now it will begin again but hopefully being older will make me wiser.